birthday & candles (not on a cake)

I'm right on the brink of my Golden birthday.

This day means everything to me. I will be 22 years old on March 22.

21 never meant shit to me.

22 is what I've been waiting for.

All the 11 multiples really; 22, 33, 44, 55, 66....

I feel like it is going to be the best year yet.

2010 has already been very, very good to me.

I feel like 22 is a beautiful number to BE.

Eric has been too good to me this birthday and needless to say I have some AWESOME concerts coming up! (passion pit, modest mouse, & THOM YORKE!) and a new navigation/radio unit in my car which now allows the music to flow from the iPhone through the car speakers. What a nice contrast to burning 1000 CDS.

But in the midst of the "golden-ness" is the redecorating of Eric's casa. It was a mere 3 weeks ago when we decided that me moving in here was going to be a top notch idea. One we still share. In my excitement and madness to create something of our own, I've been running to Target and other "home-y" kind of stores and spending away my paychecks. I have learned that I'm a bit of a candle addict. Target has these awesome candles by Illume. They come in really funky tins and have that earthy sweet scent to them, really unique. I think its nice when a candle can be used as part of decor.

Also, a love/hate relationship has started to form between me and the wonderful store called Anthropologie. Talk about amazing everything in that store, but talk about amazingly overpriced. Its sad, but its a way to muster up ideas and then...go to Target or Ikea to get something close, heh.

Along with the random candles and wall decor we've been putting around everywhere, we have also got the paint up on the walls and the carpet has been ordered! Things have been really coming along and I'm so excited. The process of making it our "own" is going better than we expected. All in all it looks like Target, Menards, Ikea, & Home Goods will be getting/has gotten their fair share from us!

Let's mention my "cool girlfriend award" for being in love with the game Call of Duty: Modern Warfare II. I have always loved video games since I first had an Atari in my room at the age of four. My brother was always bringing home game systems and new games and I always had free time to play them (in between a competitive skating career...) So now I've snagged my a guy who likes a little x-box here and there and he found a girl who loves to annihilate the assholes over live. Of course, I cannot toot my own horn-- I've only been at the game for a week, but I find myself staying up into the night to play.

I have to mention a fun little knick knack that Eric received from his boss;

They are called Bucky Balls. They are these crazy little magnetic balls and you can make all these different things out of them...

I hope you all are enjoying spring! The weather has been so wacky, but I look forward to the consistent 80 degree weather!

For now...I AM GOLDEN!

moving along!

These past two weekends were... efficient.

That has to be the best word to describe it. Efficient in almost every sense of the word.

My counterpart & I came to some good realizations & ideas over these past few weekends...

That would be;

Me moving into his house. The house is located about 40 minutes from my work/current home. But, on the bright side; he owns it (meaning we wouldn't need to be paying rent on top of a mortgage) we also have the advantage of doing what we want to it. Although its a tad far from my work, it's not too bad because it calls for mostly highway driving (IN NEED OF RADAR DETECTOR!) I also think of it as there are some people that have much longer commutes for much shittier jobs, so I'm glad I love my job because it's worth it. Since gas will be more money for me, I'm going to try and find some other job on the side because I love where I am at and don't want to give it up.

His house is all set up to go with recently installed satellite cable, all of his office stuff & electronic equipment/wiring is all configured. Normally I just stay weekends so I feel kind of uncomfortable leaving my shit around his house so I pack things each week which gets annoying, but that's my choice.. I also felt uncomfortable adding too much to the house. It wasn't mine to tamper with so I didn't start marching in hanging pictures on the wall. Of course I still clean and keep it up (I actually love cleaning) It still won't be "mine" when I move in with him, but..I AM SO EXCITED TO DECORATE! (picking out paint/carpet/etc.) He's leaving it all to me. We have some really cool ideas. I've already added some personal touches and am quite pleased with how it is all coming together.

But now the issue of actually moving in together! EEK!

Not that I'm concerned about it.

it's just that this is a big step.

It's me leaving that huge comfortability zone, while he is staying in his comfort zone.

What it all really comes down to is "I'll put up with your shit if you put up with mine."

We will have to realize that we can't constantly put up an act for one another.

Best behaviour is admired and necessary at times, but at home he has a right to be who he is without my influence. I need to learn this and accept it. He needs to do the same with me and know that I'm going to be who I am. Of course there will be tons of compromise. There has to be. Living with another human being is the greatest way of getting to know a person. I think we will be just fine. We have systems all over the place..

He's thinking "Damnit now I have to pick up my socks & throw them in the hamper?...& do laundry once a week?!" and I'm thinking "Shit, this means I have to start shaving 3-4 times a week?!" I'm sure we will be just fine, people.

We have been cleaning his house like crazy. It is looking so damn good. I feel like it is slowly showing both of our personalities in the house and I love being there. I want to move in with him so badly. I want to make something to make "ours". I want to maintain something and provide a wonderful living space. I want to live somewhere different and travel down new roads (literally and figuratively). I almost feel like this is my version of leaving for University that I never had. Scared yet extremely anxious. I will no longer be in a spot of my OWN. My own little Tessa world that has everything I need in it (except a mini fridge and a masseuse), everything that makes me comfortable. I will be creating a space with someone else to no longer make something my "own" but rather to make something "ours". I knew I had a desire to move in with him when I was coming home at the end of the weekend feeling kind of out of place. I love the idea of coming home to him. It will be a big transition, but there is no rush. Of course a trial run will be in order. I am planning on staying with him for one week during a week that we both work and have our own schedules. Of course, as time progresses our schedules will merge and it will just work. It is scary this whole process. It is scary no matter how excited you are about it. However, I feel comfortable there. We have such awesome ideas that if executed as planned, should turn out wonderfully. We have already knocked out a wall that expanded the master bedroom and it looks really nice. I just want it to all pull together quickly and perfectly. We practically have the Ikea magazine glued to our hands flipping through mustering inspiration. Good stuff. I'm excited for what is to come.

So on a completely different, yet great note-- I have to blog about The Talking Heads again! Ah! I have been rockin' to them so much lately. This is really nothing crazy, I was raised on them. But these songs in particular; give 'em a listen! They will put you in a great mood!

1) Sax & Violins

2) This Must Be The Place ( Ah ! I love David Byrne in Stop Making Sense!)

3) Road To Nowhere

A busy week lies ahead but there is a lot to look forward to :)

Has anything kept you a busy beaver lately?!