He who creates the clothes....

annnddd scene.

Finally. Christmas is over. You know, I actually feel bad writing that. I love Christmas. I look forward to it for months. I long for that "Holiday spirit" that revs up right after Halloween (although, I miss many aspects of early fall by the time Thanksgiving hits). Unfortunately so much goes along with Christmas that make it extremely irritable and exhausting. In the end, it is always worth it, but it's hard telling yourself that along the way.

I got some great gifts this year. People were so generous. Eric got me subscriptions to W, V, Nylon, Bazaar, Vanity Fair, and Pop as one of my gifts. That should keep me busy for months to come. I am so amped for all of them to start coming in the mail, I will be feverishly reading about fashion aimed at all different targets. Unfortunately Pop only delivers twice a year :( I wish it were four, at least it'd be consistent with seasonal change.

I feel like I've been in a schlump lately, but only in certain aspects. In most ways I am extremely fulfilled. This is such a hard week on me emotionally year after year. I think I just feel the need to reflect and wrap it up as we move on to a new year. I'm so anxious. I am nervous about leaving the wonderful, wonderful age of 22. I never want it to end. I just have bad feelings about all the other ages, I knew 22 would be golden, but what will 23 hold? I guess I have three more months to battle my concerns and lay them to rest.

Now aside to something for the eye to gaze at as the pre-fall 2011 has been unveiled. Zac posen, as I remember, used to be one of Natalie Portman's favourites. She used to always wear things from his collections and I believe that she put him on the map. I seem to always go back to Natalie Portman. But it's just too easy. She resides in one of my favourite issues of Vogue ever. February 2004. I also am a fan of her work in films so it just seems like an obvious person to target. While I still have not seen Black Swan, some odd curiosity swept over me to see who she was going to wear to premieres. Which brought this whole new excitement over me(*TANGENT ALERT*); Tom Ford said in his recently published interview in Vogue, "I'll wait to see who is nominated for the Oscars. Then I offer to dress one person." I cannot wait to see who he selects! It might just be Natalie Portman, although pregnancy presents itself, but it's not like he can't add a few stitches and seams ;)

So back to what I was originally trying to do with this was....

Emerald green dress is by Stella McCartney and the center one is Zac Posen.

Unfortunately I couldn't separate these pictures.

and see, they're friends too, his "muse". How cute! Also another one of his designs.

But moving away from Natalie Portman, we can nicely transition into Zac Posen. Pre-Fall 2011 is out and about and it couldn't be any more different than the spring 2011. Not that it's supposed to-and that's exactly what I like about it. I have to respect an artist whose work moves so fluidly and can differ from project to project. Of course, there are designers have that "Oh that is so and so" kind of familiarity and I can admire and respect that. Zac Posen has always had a funk to his style; youthful and eclectic. His work seems to be maturing and nicely! I love artists that can transform themselves to match the project they are working on [see; PJ Harvey]. I'm not sure that necessarily happens with Zac Posen, but I just wanted to make a note of admiration among those that do. Pre-fall feels like a mood piece. a Dark one. It's like the Gashlycrumb girls go glam. I like it. I like it's rigid sense of "cold is coming". Maybe it is the stance and darkness of the models. Spring 2011RTW is full of flamboyancy, sex, and femininity. I love it.

So here; we have Spring 2011 RTW by Zac Posen

and now here is a glimpse of his Pre-Fall 2011 Runway

Sorry for making this look rather broken.

"Fashion! Turn to the left!"

"Hey guys, I think I've come to a conclusion. It's a big deal and I'm pretty excited about it"

...is what I uttered at work the other day to the girls decorating around the table.

Elyse goes, "So..what is it?" I'm sure she thinks its something important.

Then slips from my lips...

"I'm going to subscribe to Vogue because, well, I've been a long time reader..."

Silly girl thinking it might have been important ;)

But I guess it is kind of important to me.

I don't know why I didn't get a subscription my freshman year of high school when I first started adoring the fashion filled frail pages of couture.

How could you go wrong?

I have loved Vogue for so long it's not even funny.

I used to love creating outfits trying to mimic what I would see between the covers.

Some say they are all ads. A lot of them are.

But they are beautiful and carry inspiration.

There are some issues I remember perfectly.

Like this one. March. The Power Issue.

It's mega huge and it's always in March--my birthday month! :)

There are some issues I could re-order so I could just cherish them.

Like this one with Natalie Portman on the cover

I think it was like..2003? I know I was a sophomore in High School.

This issue was the best ever. I think it was February (cant find the cover anywhere!)

It had the best layout featuring Natalie with to-die-for hair.

I was so tempted to go with that kind of look in high school.

Her ensembles where phenomenal.

It's nice to see her all spruced up because her roles tend to be plain jane-ish.

It is also way easier to like her even more because she is vegan/vegetarian :)

I really respect her work and it's good to see great people among Vogue's pages.

But a huge reason why I loved this issue so much is because the fashion spread was AMAZING.

It featured crazy patterned Haute Couture dresses.

I remember being IN LOVE with an Oscar De La Renta dress.

Of course, I don't know how to find it now. I like this new fall collection though.

I remember being absolutely in LOVE with fashion.

That desire to follow it again is creeping back up and tapping me on the shoulder :)

Yikes! So I had two exams today. Business Math & Nutrition.

I finished them both extremely fast and that makes me VERY worried.

I think I did well on nutrition (I'd hope, it's a big passion of mine)!

But math. Yeaaahhhh. I dunno.

I finished and then I looked back and its like I didn't even remember I did it.

It just all went down on that paper so quick.

I don't even know if I knew what I was doing, but I got an answer for everything so I cannot complain. I even looked over it and still finished second. That can be good...or very very bad!

People have been saying the best things lately.

I have awesome friends. Even if they are away at colleges and located all over the place.

Awesome message I got today from Danielle.

It brings me back to the good days of weather class;

Danielle Rachford:

TESSSAAAA i miss your tessa-ness

umm life is pretty fucking fantastic. no complaints really.

i think about you all the time too, i miss the shit out of you.

there is no one here that openly threatens their own lives for a good grade hahahaha.

also, i miss your need to become an assassin. these are the things i love about you.

not many women can hold a light to your tessaness. its an energy all its own.

i need some of it, can we get together sometime while im home next week?

i think a drink is in order.

I cannot wait until summer so I can hang out with everyone when they come home.

For now I'm excited to get out of here for awhile myself and head down to the beach!

There will be more where this came from; but located in a much warmer environment!

(two weeks ago in Lake Forest)

I'm exxxhausted. It's been a good day, but a long one!

Have a great night!

-Tessabee

Song currently playing: Metric (Gold Guns Girls)