This is how I am repaid.

Here is me. I am writing about my life again.

I know this is exciting stuff.

well lets start off with work.

the weeks before and of Christmas we were slammed.

It was staying till 11pm almost each night.

I'm not necessarily complaining about that = ($$$$)

I love my job, but the hours are finicky.

I normally start each day at 2pm.

I could get out at 6:30pm or 2am. You just never know.

Although it's all over the board, I really like that. Sometimes I get out early (that's lucky)

Sometimes I get out late (but that's money.)

I say it completely balances out.

So this week we were rather slow. By slow I mean get out at 6:05 or 7pm.

This is rare, but when it happens it's quite nice.

Especially since Valentine's Day is going to be major busy.

I miss out on something fancy for the date, but after getting my credit card bill

I'm sure that paycheck the week of Valentines day will do me good!

HEY! BIG NEWS

(well kind of, and only if you're me)

I drove to Eric's house! I know, this seems lame.

He lives about 45-50 minutes away and it's all highway driving.

Highways freak me out.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE going fast and maneuvering along the road...

It's more so the fear of missing an exit and not knowing where I am.

I am terrified of getting lost. Of course, my phone has GPS so that's a huge perk.

So this week Eric needed me to drive to his house and I did it no problem!

I wasn't even really that nervous about it.

(he asked me to drive to his house about 2 months ago and I practically had a panic attack)

But 2010 is bringing me some highway "you will not get lost!" confidence.

GO YEAR OF CONFIDENCE!

So I've been thinking a lot lately. (well, I guess)

I'm done with school for the time being and now I'm thinking about what lies ahead.

I am getting more hours at work, which is GREAT news. Four days a week is perfect.

I hate the fact that I feel like I need a day off during the week to "recoup"

and do what I need to get done (laundry, long skating days, cleaning, seeing friends).

I am so excited that I am skating more & have potentially found a coach I want to work with.

I want to get into ballet more. I'm dying to get up on pointe.

There are other things I'd like to fill my time with.

I feel like as soon as I share a goal with people, it's no longer going to get accomplished.

Or completely the opposite. Sometimes sharing a goal with someone encourages you to do it.

& Sometimes I just feel like I lose sights of it all together when my goal is publicized.

A GREAT DAY OF FOOTBALL!

The Packers Vs. The Cardinals!

What a game. It's great watching amazing football games.

When you're from Chicago & you've got the Bears, you envy a GREAT game

played between other teams. So this playoff game was GREAT.

Back to back touchdowns by each team.

With the decent lead Arizona had going into half time, the Packers REALLY picked it back up.

I love those "edge of your seat" sports moments.

I was going for the Cardinals.

I'm over the Packers (I was never really into them actually)

I'm glad I'm with someone that loves Sunday Football.

I love watching the games together and keeping track of the season.

I can't wait for the Super Bowl! Plus, THE WHO is playing halftime!

Thank goodness it's someone awesome!

on another note...

I have to recommend that you listen to the song:

"The wanting comes in waves/Repaid"

By: The Decemberists

I love this song. I love it's dynamic and what it makes me think about.

For now I am going to crochet before bed.

Skating and Work tomorrow. Should be a great day!

I guess you can say I'm a LUSH lush?

Why hello there, Tuesday evening!

It has been quite a good day thus far.

I am just so amped about the fact that school no longer interferes with my skating.

Some of you are thinking

(cue Jim Gaffigan's 'audience thoughts' voice)

"she must have this all backwards...education is so important!"

Yeah whatever it got in the way of my skating.

I just REALLY hope that I can start getting lessons again.

That'd be fabulous.

So on Saturday night Eric and I cuddled in for a movie.

The movie? Julie & Julia.

No, I would NOT call this a situation where I had said

"HONEY CAN WE PLEEEAASSEEEE WATCH THIS CHICK FLICK!?"

I'm not really that type and the movie wasn't that type either.

I loved it though. I love cooking (I wish I did WAY more of it) & I LOVE France.

I say it like I have a summer house there.

I've never been, but I love the culture, the clothing, the COOKING!, & of course the sights.

However it got me thinking, since its so heavily based on blogs;

"I wonder how crazy it would be to get that many comments/followers!"

"Should I make some sort of goal like that and follow through?"

"Should my blog have a theme?"

EEK!

Then I thought about my blog. Wow.

I just write about my days and various things that go on in my life.

I do this more so to keep track of it all and spill some thoughts.

It's sort of like "Who would want to read this?"

But I always enjoy getting a peek into other peoples lives.

It adds another dimension; a new perspective.

It's refreshing and assuring if that makes any sense at all.

I feel like I need to make a shout out to the store LUSH.

I have been there three times in the past two weeks.

No complaining on this end. Each time I get more and more.

I love that the products are made with natural ingredients & are not tested on animals.

This is what I racked up this week;

These lip balms are AMAZING. They moisturized in no time!

They also taste and smell AMAZING. I would make this your main lip wear.

When you go into LUSH and ask to sample something

someone will come over and test it and also give you like a 2 minute hand massage.

It is the best store ever. They tell you what it does and how to use it.

This is for your body/face/hands. I love it for the hands, but of course also good for the face.

It smells like lime and coconut and sand. In the best way ever of course.

I love this stuff. Being a skater, anything to make my feet better is a plus.

This is great after you get out of the shower or right before you hop into bed with socks.

(I know, sometimes sleeping with socks on is annoying as hell, but it's worth it. Heh.)

It has peppermint, cocoa, almond oil, etc etc.

It makes your feet tingle and makes them feel clean and fresh.

Which is always nice.

I've got two jars of this gold. It is the best hand cream ever & smells super earthy,

but delicious. I love slathering this over my paws in the morning and before bed.

Eric got me 2 jars for Christmas! I'll have smooth hands in stock!

As you can see, I'm loaded on the Lush. I am a Lush lush.

If there is a Lush by you--GO! I went there like two times before loving it.

You've just got to do some exploring. They've got GREAT bath bombs.

But lets be honest, I get so bored in a tub unless I've got a glass of champagne

and a Vogue. Most often it's the champagne that I lack :(

(or my spelling skills as Eric pointed out.)

I hope everyone enjoys their Wednesday!

Drink lots of water and be sure to learn a fun fact.

xx
tessa

watching: Futurama

but wanting to watch Top Gear :(

What 2010 is bringing me.

Oh. my. goodness.

Where do I start? I feel like it has been forever since I have touched this blog.

I've missed it.

I feel like there are a million different directions I could go with this entry.

I'll just write it stream of conscious.

Good luck followers...the six I have... ha ha

Does anyone else feel that the full moon tinkers with EVERYTHING?!

I never did until now. Needless to say, everything is fabulous now;

but there were a few mishaps along the flow of our New Years Eve Plans.

But....

Before I delve into what I did this past week/weekend

I feel like I should do a little bit of writing about "ringing in the new year"

and what it all means to me.

For the past four years (or more)

I have spent so much time and energy bringing myself down.

"I'm fat", "I'm ugly", "I'm stupid", "I'm worthless".

You can constantly hear me mutter these things on a daily basis.

No more. I am so sick of it.

I was never looking for you to rush to say "NO YOU'RE NOT!"

I was never looking for your denial or reassurance. I just stated it as fact.

2009 brought many great changes in my life.

I feel like I have found my counterpart, I found a job I enjoy going to, & I have finished school.

I still have a long way to go with making myself a better/more knowledgeable person.

For now, I just feel like I cannot waste my time putting down the person I've grown to be.

I cannot let other peoples encouraging and warm words go to waste.

I will not allow my boyfriends feelings to crumble each time I deny his compliments.

I will believe people when they say I'm good/pretty/smart/beautiful.

I will accept my body and know that I do a lot to keep it in the best shape that I can.

I might not know everything, but that's what life and learning is all about.

I cannot be afraid to ask questions or admit that I don't know something.

I am calling 2010 the year of confidence.

There are always ups and downs. Insecurities will always linger.

But I am who I am and I have to stop bringing that person down.

Old habits are hard to break, but I feel that I'm worth it.

So let's dive into those plans of ours!

I headed over to Eric's on Wednesday night so we could be ready to go on Thursday morning.

We were headed up to Milwaukee to see Spoon, one of our favourite bands.

We got on the road at a good time, checked into our awesome hotel,

& we ate at an AMAZING restaurant for our New Years Dinner called Roots.

(I am still craving this amazing salad they have

--& really I'm really not the "I'll just have a salad" kind of girl.)

We ended up heading over to the venue around 8:30

Spoon came on around 10:50pm-ish.

THEY WERE PHENOMENAL.

They played every song I wanted them to play & I felt so great at this show.

So great I cannot explain it. My body was feelin the music (gin & tonic will do it!)

& I loved seeing the excitement on Eric's face as they belted our favourite songs.

This is the problem. Every show Eric & I see together is amazing.

(which isn't really a problem)

But how do you rank them?

Modest Mouse, Phoenix, Chairlift, Metric, Spoon--ahh! All fantastic bands.

Anywho...all I have to say;

MILWAUKEE--GET YOUR CAB SERVICE SHIT TOGETHER.

You screwed up our New Years Eve together.

Or should I say; the full moon screwed our plans.

On the bright side, New Years Day brought all sorts of amazing things.

Eric surprised me with staying another night in a hotel (The Hotel Monaco) in Chicago.

He also surprised me with a fantastic dinner at one of my favourite restaurants in the city;

Avec. It's French cuisine & everything on the menu melts in your mouth.

A divine dinner followed by popping some Veuve Clicquot & Dom Perignon.

This was the best way to spend the first day of 2010.

I couldn't be more lucky.

Normal life resumed Saturday evening when we got to Eric's house.

I made gnocchi and a nice salad and we gulped down some wine

& enjoyed our low key evening together.

While I love our nights out & sleeping in high end hotels, our nights in are the best.

The nights were I cook and he cleans up :) What a team.

Now I'm back home and work (and skating!) starts again this week.

I'm excited to get back to life as it should be.

But I had the most wonderful holiday season! I spent it with people I truly love.

People I am so blessed to have in my life.

I must admit, I feel weird when I used the word "blessed"

since I am not at ALL into the religious thing.

But I feel extremely lucky. I have GREAT people in my life.

I wouldn't trade any of them.

Thank you so much to all of you who made the holidays extremely awesome.

Thanks for dealing with my shitty confidence through the 2000's.

2010 is here and there's no more bullshit.

I am who I am and I'm loving it.

Where are all those snowmen?!

It's always a little sad to see Christmas go...

But then again it's fun to get into the mood of a new year.

I love those weeks of building up the holiday hype.

The stress we welcome in with open arms.

My Christmas Eve and my Christmas Day were just wonderful this year.

For Christmas Eve we went over to Eric's parents house for dinner and gift exchange.

They got me some awesome gifts and seemed to really like what I got them :)

For Christmas Day my parents, brother & sister-in-law, & I

do our gift exhange in the morning

That normally takes about 2 hours to get through.

There are a lot of gifts to go around.

I was so grateful! I got so many great things and all of them are useful.

Another year of good gifts and I got a lot of gift cards! This was very good.

A particular favorite which i have not used is...

my new Crayola Glow Dome courtesy of my mom! See here!

It was such a random gift to get that brought upon great results ha ha ha.

I cannot wait to use it.

Normally we go to my Cousin's house after our family exchange

and do the exchange all over again with my mom's side.

We hadn't had it at our house in years and Eric would be spending the day with my family.

We are a pretty crazy bunch, but I knew he would have no problems getting along.

I was so excited that we were having the Christmas party at our house this year.

I mean, it's always more comfortable to spend Christmas in your own home, right?

I even got a bit dressed up for the occasion!

So all in all we had about 15 people at our house on Friday.

I love when our house is filled with laughter and loudness.

It's such a contrast to the norm.

Here are a few shots from Christmas Eve/Day:

(thank you again, Eric for having to go through the pain in the ass process of converting the file!)

(Christmas Eve --what's up, mermaid legs! ha ha ha.)

(Christmas; Side profile of me sporting a new scarf my Uncle Dave gave me

& of course, my Santa hat!)

(Christmas; an awesome shot Eric took of the festivities!)

(Christmas; our festive wear with a little pizazz on my feet!)

After all the holiday hype was done we retired to Eric's for the weekend & did not do much.

We even slept in until 2pm today.

Which is absolutely disgusting but it was awesome at the same time.

Today was a day of football (bummer, Colts) and Saturday was a day of cleaning.

It was a productive, yet relaxing weekend & it doesn't get much better than that.

Although, with the snow we got, I was a little bummed we didn't make a snowman.

But let's be honest, I cannot stand the cold for more than 2 minutes...(or less)

So it's really my fault. Maybe I will have to throw on 5 sweaters and get crafty.

:)

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Don't ask questions!

Tomorrow I am seeing my friend Adam who is on leave from the Navy.

We are going to lunch with my friend Cady & that should be a great time!

For now I must go to bed if there is any hope of me heading into the gym tomorrow!

Don't forget to drink lots of water! ;)

xx

listening to: (nine) by Ratatat

broke as a joke (for good reason)

Why hello, hello.

You better have all your holiday cheer together!

Christmas is just around the corner!

Things have been so busy!

But the good news and the bad news?!

I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE DUE TO THE HOLIDAYS.

This is good because I know I have gotten people gifts I think they will really enjoy/use.

But it's bad because well, I've got like no money.

Oh well I will survive!

I have everyone's gift and its all put nicely into baskets and appropriate

things have bows tied neatly around them.

I love giving gifts.

The stress I could do without.

Work got out super late last night and the night before (after 12am both nights).

Now I have quite a nice little break from it all.

I cannot wait. I'm revved for Christmas!

I am deciding to dress up a little more this year.

(who doesn't love a reason to buy another piece of clothing?)

Anywho; I hope everyone has an AMAZING holiday and please-- enjoy yourselves!

M is for Metric & Mathematics!

Jeepers.

It has been awhile since I have written.

I can blame finals for that.

I devoted the weekend/monday/tuesday to feverishly studying.

My biggest concern was my math exam. Business math that is.

It makes a world of difference what kind of math it is.

(I actually passed this final and got a B in the class)! <--groundbreaking.

I have a really shaky history with mathematics, but algebra more so than any other math.

I have gotten D's and failed math classes MY WHOLE LIFE.

(and I get good grades in everything else! I just lack math/science)

Except when I got to Geometry where I got a B with ease.

But once I had to go to college I had to retake this god damn algebra.

I took the first part of the math series which is 16 weeks called 0481.

I passed this class easily with a C.

Whatever. I didn't want anything to do with math so I took a semester off from it.

(so I forgot everything of course)

Then I had to finish up it's ugly little counterpart 0482.

This class was a load of bullshit. People fail this class 2-3 times AT LEAST!

Most people have to keep paying the most expensive course fee at the school

It a made to fail course and every teacher there knows it.

(and yes, I have personally yelled at the head of the math department)

So then I jumped around the requirement and got to take business math instead.

This means I had to change my major (from arts or whatever) to general studies.

This is actually perfect.

I have the best major (if that's what we're calling it)...

When people ask me what I study, my answer is literally without saying;

"I'm basically just studying a bunch of random shit."

I'm all over the place--no one really knows what I'm doing.

I'll enjoy the mystery too, because...I don't know either!

It's good though.

I'm good with just working and having my focus elsewhere for a period of time.

I have a feeling I will get that academic need and take a few classes randomly in the future.

I just hope I did well this semester!

Another fabulous thing happened yesterday (besides school being over)

I saw Metric! I love this band so much.

Video One: "Twilight Galaxy" Live. (acoustic)

Video Two: Favourite Metric song #1

Video Three : Favourite Metric song #2

Eric turned me on to them a few months ago.

We were supposed to go see them in Atlanta over the Thanksgiving break I got sick for.

Since we did not go, I felt bad we couldn't make the concert

and bought tickets for the Chicago show.

I find out one of my good friends (Cady) was going to the same show I was.

Due to Eric's work, he met us up at Cubby Bear (the venue).

We were also with Cady's friend, Anna.

So the doors open at 8pm and it says concert starts at 9.

(this was posted on tickets and websites)

So we get drinks and we start waiting...and waiting...and waiting.

So 10:30 rolls around--no Metric.

People kind of get pissed, but Eric got really pissed (rightfully so).

It's one of his favourite bands and he turned me on to them.

He starts to fret because he had to work early this morning and

had to still get home after the show had already been 1.5 hours late.

He asks someone that worked there what time it started.

"Midnight."

was the answer he got back.

He walks back and said there was no way he could stay.

I was extremely bummed. We would have to wait another two hours to see them.

But Cady, Anna, and I braved it out.

Let me tell you, it was the worst seeing him go. I knew exactly how he was feeling.

I wanted him to have a great time, I wanted him to see his favourite band.

It just sucks that he didn't get to.

I understand though. His job is really important! :)

So after he left and we had all this time to kill we got some food in the restaurant portion.

But keep in mind--people were PISSED.

Many people left and everyone thought it started at 9.

How do you have a midnight concert on a Wednesday night?

whatever.

The concert started up around 12:15am.

We were SO excited at this point.

They were great.

They opened with Twilight Galaxy.

I would love to see them again in a bigger venue.

and I would like to see them with Eric! (wasn't the same without him)

We actually ended up snagging a good spot on the side stage area.

I got a few pictures as well!

YAY!

So now that all that excitement is over...I've got work tomorrow and Saturday.

I'm seeing the Nutcracker with Eric's mom on Saturday.

That should be good, I'm looking forward to it.

I just hope work tomorrow doesn't go too late.

Hopefully before midnight.

All in all...

I hope everyone has had a great week! :)

the best hat in world.

Today was a beautiful bright sunny day.

Even though the temperature was in the single digits.

I had to snap this shot this morning of my backyard:

which officially makes it time for

MY EARFLAP HAT!

(SEEN HERE!)

I got this hat last year. I saw it and knew it needed to be mine.

I had longed for a hat like this for such a long time.

I don't know what it is about it, but I LOVE hats like these.

One thing for sure is that they keep you warm.

Anything extra to keep me warm is always welcomed!

Even more so, I love it when guys wear these hats.

A few months back I saw a fur earflap hat laying around at Eric's house.

I WAS SO EXCITED!

A guy I was dating ALREADY OWNED a hat that I loved!

I always wanted a boyfriend who wore one.

(of course, mine is WAY cooler)

;)

But it is still exciting none the less.

Just another thing I love about him.

All in all, earflap hats are where its at!

sincerely,

Tessa

one short of a bakers dozen!

12 random things about me (at the moment & in general).

1) I walk terribly fast. Anyone who knows me can defend this very statement. Nobody can keep up with me. Unless you're a figure skater. We are fast walkers. I'm telling you, when you're spending your entire youth gliding around like rapid fire on blades--you better believe you get used to the speed. Plus, I just like the exercise.

2) Call me George Washington but I cannot tell a lie. This is true. I am very uncomfortable with lying. I think I might have been better at it in my younger years. I feel absolutely horrible if I do not tell the truth and just cannot justify it. This keeps me out of trouble in the long run and it doesn't complicate anything.

George couldn't tell a lie either!

(remember the apple tree story!?)

3) I'd like to think I'm a considerate and sometimes a very sensitive person. I really do think of others. I don't want to intentionally hurt anyone, unless you intentionally hurt me--then it's on. I always think of the golden rule. I treat people how I want to be treated, it is so important. I believe in karma and try to always keep the good karma going. Sometimes my sensitivity gets the best of me. It's the Pisces in me (born on the Aries/Pisces cusp!) Sometimes I think I am too sensitive for this world. I think the things that happen in this world make us cold people and it's depressing. I'd like to see everyone happy. I want there to be no suffering. It's just unfortunate that the day will never come where that happens.

4) What I eat is extremely important to me. I like to view food as fuel. I like to eat when my body is hungry but I want to fill it with something that is good, yet beneficial. I am currently a vegetarian and really enjoying it. I really love when I'm eating healthy. Everything feels so much better. I even include a ton of vegan products in my diet. I feel good about eating it and I know it's actually useful to my body. Seriously; why do people drink soda? I don't understand! I hate America's issue with food. We have so many different people shooting out their ideas. People are hit with all this conflicting information and don't know what to follow. You're better off reading studies that are available rather than listen to people such as Dr. Oz. I just want people to be informed about nutrition. It's so important. You eat THREE times a day and you should know what you're consuming and what it's doing to you or for you.

5) Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to anytime when I was between the ages of 5-10 years old. I would be skating everyday, jam-packed with activities (ballet, off ice training, weight training, gymnastics) and competitive in a difficult sport (and doing well with it). I wish I could just go back and give a damn like I do now. I threw that potential career away. I threw it away for a lame middle school/high school life. Don't get me wrong, I had fun, but giving it up wasn't worth it either. I think everyday about where I could be now if I just showed a little determination in those ages. I feel like I wasted years of my life droning along in high school. Of course I did school activities (theater, cheerleading, etc.). It's just not the same for what I could have had. I'm sure there was a reason for it. I just don't know what yet.

Me when I was about 6 or 7.

I won three events in my group that day.

6) I listen to everything you tell me. I will remember anything you will say. & I never forget a face.

7) Music that is able to make your mood change is remarkable. This is going from any state of mind to another. Songs that make me feel sad when I'm actually happy are amazing. I love music that makes me move; when I hear it and actually have to get up and do something to it. I also love when a song makes me feel more strong or powerful or brings a great image to mind. I love when you hear a song in a movie or a show and always associate that scene with that song. I guess I love song imagery. I think I should make music videos. I always have a vision for a song--and a dance! :) Music is so powerful and has the ability to bring so much to people.

8) I love my job. I talk about it all the time, but I decorate cookies. I love the idea of having a specific trade and just getting really good at it. I was thinking today as I was making tea; "wow, those people at the tea shop (that I go to in the city) have a great job, I mean--they work with tea!" and I thought...wait a second! I have a cool job! I work with cookies! I am extremely lucky. I really want to perfect it and progress. It will just take more time and practice.

9) All this talk about approval ratings is driving me nuts. Perhaps this is my overload of CNN/Fox news this week. They keep projecting that Obama's approval rating is low, blah blah blah. Really?! Is this the same president that everyone stood so excitedly behind last year? The one who was going to make change, create jobs, and love the whole world?! Now, since change hasn't been made right away, people get pissed and ::hands on hips, 5 year old voice:: "Don't approve!" Get over it. Things cannot be fixed right away. Don't get me wrong, I am NOT defending Obama. But people tend to be more harsh against the president in times of a bad economic state. Bummer.

10) I am infamous for starting/butting into random conversations with people I don't even know. I know it could be annoying, but why not? I've met/chatted with really cool people that way. Plus, what do you have to lose? A few words is better than an awkward silence or a missed encounter.

11) Having good study music is essential. Be sure to have Pink Floyd, Phish, Radiohead, & Ratatat in your "study" playlist. I'm very specific about what I have on when I'm doing homework or studying. I'm telling you; Radiohead's OK Computer album got me an A in Earth Science. Phish gave me great grades for environmental bio class. I'm telling you that you cannot go wrong with these bands.

12) I love when my thoughtful/creative side comes out at full force. Those days where I'm driving home and immediately get the urge to stop at Hobby Lobby to pick up a canvas so I can make a collage of some sort. Or those days I pull out the yarn and make a scarf or gather up my beads and throw them around my barrettes. I feel productive and like I'm releasing good energy. Get crafty!

I don't know what inspired me to do that.

I guess I've just been thinkin' about random stuff and noticing/acknowledging it.

I hope your week is going well!

-Tessa

dear snowflakes; you ROCK!

Ah, finally.

I'm stepping away from math for awhile.

I've had suburb concentration today as I went over two chapters of review.

I have two exams this week; math & history.

Math is priority right now and as the end creeps closer--I get more and more nervous!

I have not passed a math class in ages.

Algebra is one thing, but this math (business math) I actually understand.

It's more relevant. But it is always at the end where you regret not putting in more time.

I should have. Oh well, Life is full of "should haves"

and I only assume that great things got in the way of my studies.

Of course, this isn't a justification by any means, it's just the truth.

[This is a picture taken about two years ago in a math class.

I had this class with a guy friend (not in the picture)

and I'd bring wine glasses and a bottle of Perrier and we'd sit in the back & drink it.

My teacher hated us. It was hilarious.

Of course--we both ended up dropping. heh]

I cannot believe school is almost done.

(I hope so--have to pass this math!)

It seems that it went by so slow yet so quick (this semester that is).

It feels like I've been in college FOREVER.

It will be an eerie feeling to be done. Kind of unsettling perhaps.

I've been going to classes at least three times a week for the past 3 1/2 years.

I've been filling my mind with tons of new information.

I have to admit, I didn't mind the material I was learning (most of the time)

Looking back at it, I enjoyed most classes I sat in.

I enjoyed the debates, the people I met, the professors I had...

I enjoyed doing well on tests and finding determination to get good grades.

It will be weird omitting this from my life for a period of time.

I think I will eventually go back for something.

The time away will be good for me.

I will enjoy working and mustering some savin' money!

Today I woke up to a fantastic sight of snow lingering on the tree branches

& just coating the ground. I love waking up to that sight.

When it snows I have a huge desire to stay in,

drink hot cocoa (or wine!), read magazines, and hang out.

Unfortunately today I had to schlump to class.

Things weren't bad today.

After I had my classes I went to Whole Foods

(conveniently located less than a mile from my campus)

and picked up a whole bunch of goodies.

I love when most of the stuff I end up getting is vegan.

I also love getting stuff for the week and knowing that it's healthy.

I hate spending my money on fast food (panera, noodles, etc)

and I find myself doing it ALL the time.

I'm glad I was able to stock up!

Today I also put a good amount of time into figuring out

what I wanted to get people for Christmas.

This is a tough call. I feel like I have so many gifts to buy.

I like to get creative. I hope I have the time and the money to do so.

I'm really excited about it.

I'm actually really excited about Christmas in general this year.

My mom's whole side will pretty much be at my house.

I love a full house on Holidays.

It just makes it all feel complete & cheery.

Tomorrow brings fantastic things.

Mainly because--it's skating time once again!

I've been off the ice for over two weeks.

This kills me. I like to be skating as much as I can.

This has to be one of my favorite views.

I anticipate it tomorrow. I just have to take it easy and get back into it.

However, I must get back to my studies :(

Just a few weeks left of school and just a few more hours before I step out on the ice again.

I look forward to both!

-tESSABEE!

radiohead & cleanliness.

ALAS!

A CLEAN LIVING SPACE!

I could not be more excited. I worked up a little inspiration & did some heavy cleaning.

I took down a lot of the posters that were in my room that I still liked, but could do without.

I felt so cluttered in my room. Small things everywhere.

Of course, I am organized so I always know where things are.
But I like to feel like my room holds no clutter.

I even tackled my closet. I have a big walk in closet.

This accumulates a lot of random stuff and it's been years since I've actually gone through it.

Perhaps I'll snap a few pictures...

&

I know, I know.

These pictures really don't do it justice. Plus, it was a complete train wreck before.

I'm sure some of you have much cleaner rooms than this, but it's still exciting none the less.

I have cleaned my room a few times in the past few months,

but nothing so in depth in awhile.

I'm also going back in fourth because I want to hold on to certain things.

like my Led Zeppelin poster and my Pink Floyd one.

But I'm trying to class the place up & they still make the cut :)

I kind of want to reorganize things, but my room kind of makes it hard--lots of odd angles.

My entertainment center is kind of wacky, so it has only one spot it can go.

I did the most with what I have.

My day was pretty good today. We have to fill out teacher evaluations this week.

My teachers are pretty good this semester so it's really easy to fill them out.

Classes are pretty simple right so that's a relief.

I'm all for not a lot going on in the academic aspect in my life.

I ended up at whole foods for lunch. I love Whole Foods.

But I was quite irritated at the checkout lines.

It seemed to take forever for me to get through even though in both instances

there was only one other person in front of me. Whatever.

I have this system when I go there...

I cruise around the store and find items for a good lunch.

I pay for it and sit in the cafe area and eat them.

Then I go back around the store to see if I need to get anything while I'm there.

This way I can walk off my lunch a little bit and look for something new,

but it also ensures me going through checkout twice.

Any other day than today this is no problem.

But I got some goodies so no complaints here.

The weather is getting colder and I am not excited about this.

I love a good Christmas-y spirit and getting bundled up...

but the cold sits in my bones for hours.

I'm ALWAYS cold.

It's the worst when you're in a classroom trying to pay attention.

The sky had a thick grey blanket over it today. It seemed so dark out at only 3pm.

It makes me want to crawl in bed and sleep until tomorrow.

I have ballet at 5:30. I'm so tired, I hope it goes well.

Dancing should put a little life in me...I hope!

Time to get ready!

sorry for the boring entry!

-Tessabee

listening to: Radiohead (Nice Dream)